Not for me

 Several people in my office got these chairs. I thought maybe I would want one. So I borrowed one to try it out.

Fifteen minutes is all it took for me to decide "NO THANKS!"   My lower back was throbbing and I had shooting pains down my right hip and thigh.  Having had two herniated disks, any kind of pressure on my back has to be carefully played. This was a no-no.

I also did not like that it had no arms. And the back rest is there, but you are told not to use it because it will make your lower back arch in an awkward position.

Not for me. Nope, that's enough of that. Uh Uh.

Such a vicious cycle.....

Car accident caused chronic pain.
Remedy: anti-inflammatory medication to reduce inflammation caused by the injury.
Result: inflammatory disease. Years of taking anti-inflammatories has ruined my digestive system from mouth to colon. Causing ulcers, diverticulosis, strictures, gastritis, gingivitis, arthritis, (any more "itis" ?)

Poor diet: eating too many refined foods and sugar
Remedy: eat whole foods and eliminate processed foods and sugar
Result: aggravates inflammatory bowel disease
Eating healthy, whole foods makes it WORSE not better.

Low residue diet: eating all the stuff that is not good for most people... white rice, white pasta, white bread, canned fruits and vegetables (lower fiber than fresh),
Result: weight gain, fatigue, brain fog, but it makes my inflammation in the colon less.

IBS and IBD are not the same thing.
IBS is much easier to deal with.
IBD.... only gets worse. And can result in some pretty serious complications.
Stress makes it worse.
My life recently (past month) has been HIGHLY stressful. Which explains why I have been so sick with stomach problems.

The pain, the discomfort, the frequent trips to the restroom, are taking a toll on me.
*sigh.
Oh, to be young again.

From my highschool surrogate dad of eons ago.......

"Hi everyone I've been given the death sentence, the doctors said all that can be done is keep me comfortable. They told me there is liquid in my lungs and around the outside of my stomach. 
I have a big mass growing in my belly. There is some other things going on inside of me I don't even understand
In a nut shell its a mess."

Ronnie Simonds was my "other dad" back in highschool. He was the real dad of my best friend Connie. And now.... well..... he's got cancer.

Very sad. I'm sure he is in shock to post that on FB. 
Wish I could do something. 

Holding on.... by a thread

Work is so stressful.
I can't take it.
It's not that I am doing anything wrong.
But other people are.
And it affects me.
And it makes my work impossible to do right.
And it is just such a negative environment.
It is making me ill.
Literally.