What happened?

Prince William used to be a hunk. I thought he took after his mom and he really was a good looking kid.

Then suddenly overnight he turned into his dad!

WHAT HAPPENED?

He lost his hair! Isn't he young f0r that?

I mean really. Look at the difference!! I'd go for young Prince William (age 18 in the cute photo), but I'd ditch the current one.

Yeah? Whatever!

So... I'm kinda grumpy. And Rightly so. I haven't seen my hubby since JANUARY.

But all this gonna change. Cuz he is coming home for a week for our anniversary. Memorial Day. YAY.

I miss him soooooo bad. Unfortunately he has to go back to Honolulu on May 31, but I plan to love every second he is in town. And then I may cry for a week.

But for now.... I'm grumpy... but soon to be smiling. I hope. LOL

Fight Dr. Evil Unemployment!

Some idiot took $14,000 of government aid meant to go toward the unemployed and purchased thousands of superhero capes for a "Cape-Ability" challenge. Handing out the capes to the unemployed.

HOW wasteful and stupid is that??? What are they supposed to do? Use it as a blanket while they sleep in a box because they are homeless? Wear it to a job interview? Believe that it will give them magic power to get a job?

Yet ANOTHER stupid, idiotic waste of money. But cuts have to be made so they have cut mental health funding in EVERY state.

More people are now unemployed, uninsured, depressed and desperate and they can't get any help because the funds are cut for mental health. But, oh... let's give em all a superman cape and all will be well.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS COUNTRY??????

I am so fed up with the stupid, horrible choices being made by the people in charge I could SCREAM.

The utter WASTE by our government astounds me. They cut medicare benefits for the elderly. They cut funds for our schools. They cut funds for mental health. They cut funding for cancer research. They cut salary for our military. But oh.... they spend thousands on superman capes. They spend thousands on "studies" for cow burps. They spend millions to entertain each other with fancy dinners at $1000 a plate, and pay for private jets, 5-star hotels, and limos.

Let the congressmen and women stay in a Motel 6, drive a Ford Focus, and eat at McDonalds. Who are they to deserve luxury? If they represent ME they should live like ME. How else are they going to know the plight of the normal person/family?

One congressman recently got called on the carpet because he makes $170,000 a year and he was claiming he was "more in debt" than anybody else. Well, he has two houses. Boo hooo. And apparently he doesn't know how to budget his money. I could live very comfortably on $170,000 a year and be completely debt free. I don't want to to hear Waaa Waaaa from the rich.

Man it burns me. Just got to vent.

Dreaming

I had a strange dream about my mom last night. She was living in an apartment, alone. I was there to help her and she was in a wheelchair. If she wanted to walk, I had to hold her up, and she was heavy so I would almost drop her. I kept telling her to just sit and I would push her in the chair. But she'd get mad at me.

She told me she wanted me to take her in the car to a place where they were going to do her makeup. I was not familiar with the area where she lived, and really didn't want to drive the roads, but I would if she really wanted me to.

She kept saying "My daughter is going to call you." And I would say, "You mean my sister Donna? I'm your daughter too mom" but she acted like she didn't know me as her daughter.

Donna called me on the phone and I was trying to tell her that mom didn't recognize me and I needed help getting her in and out of the car because she was very heavy and I would almost drop her.

There was more to the dream... but I don't remember it. Weird.

Nice funeral

So my friend Zelle passed away. I have known her and her husband for 27 years. They have been in my home every month for the past 8 years. (almost every month).

I went to her funeral today. It was a very sweet funeral. Very nice. Very sad. I still can't wrap my head around the fact she is gone. I only talked to her on the phone a couple weeks ago.

But she went to church last Sunday, she seemed fine -- and then she went home and dropped dead of a heart attack in a blink of an eye. I had a feeling something was up because I walked past her house on Sunday after church and there were a ton of cars there.

She's the "matriarch" of a HUGE family. Her husband, has aged ten years in the past week. He looked so lost and forlorn. Very, very sad. It would not surprise me if he also leaves this life in the near future. That happens a lot... when a spouse goes. But actually, in our ward, it doesn't. So I guess I shouldn't say that. We have a lot of widowers in the ward who have survived their wives by several years.

I thought my dad would go soon after my mom. But she has been gone for 4 years and he's still here. He's too ornery to die anyway. LOL.

When I attend funerals, I always find myself planning my own. (I know that sounds depressing and maudlin, but really it's not). I'm going to die someday. That's a given. And I'd actually like to have the kind of funeral "I" want -- because I will be there, watching. I have no doubt.

I want my funeral to be fun. By that I mean... I want a lot of laughter. I guess I better write all my thoughts down sometime and give to my kids so they have them.

I want my life "celebrated." I don't want my death mourned. I know I'm going to a better place. And I will still be me.

Red flags

New girl at work. Mid-forties. Been here a week and has displayed drug seeking behavior like you wouldn't believe.

She has a problem. I can tell. I have had bad vibes about her since I met her. And I try to be nice. I even went to lunch with her today to my favorite spot "La Hacienda". But.... there's something not right.

I think she thinks I have good "drugs" in my desk drawer because I have some Tylenol in a baggie. LOL. It's just tylenol. She's welcome to it.

Rant and Rave Wednesday

What is happening to this world? All I hear is negative news. Wars abound. Gas is going up. People getting laid off. Governments threatening to strike. Congressmen and women who no longer represent the people. They say what they can to get voted into office but after that... they have their own agenda. And the STUPID IDIOTIC decisions that are being made in legislature make absolutely no sense.

What is going on in this world???

Utah recently relaxed its liquor laws. People were happy because, let's face it, the laws are archaic. Whether half the state drinks or not, we really need to respect those who do. And relaxing the laws did not increase the amount of people who drink, or up the DUI statistics. But the government gave a little and now wants to take it all back by closing a bunch of stores (stores that actually MAKE HUGE PROFITS).

Ok.... now... I don't support liquor stores. But it is a business that makes a huge PROFIT. And a percentage of those profits go to our schools. (odd, I know, but hey,.... the schools need money).

So the people in the DABC want to close 9 stores (I didn't even know there were that many in the state)... and lay OFF a bunch of people (so they can go on government aid unemployment) and take money away from our schools which are already struggling on a string budget.

I just don't get it.

I know somebody who went to the liquor store on Saturday. There was only ONE employee working and the line was 45 people long. People were getting angry having to wait. It makes NO SENSE to me!!! NO BUSINESS sense!!! I'd rant and rave just as much if it was convenience stores, or grocery stores or any business that makes millions of dollars a year in profit and the powers that be think it's good business sense to CLOSE them?????

Then the government planning it's little strike.... the congressmen would continue to get their paycheck.... but our MILITARY would have to have theirs put on hold???? The people who make hundreds of thousands a year get theirs.... but the ones who struggle paycheck to paycheck... they don't?

If I was a military person and I heard that. I'd quit fighting. Seriously. I'd walk out. You're not going to pay me? I'm not going to fight for you.

Grrrrrr. Sorry. I have to rant.

I am trying to eat healthier. Guess what? It costs MORE to eat healthy than it does to eat crap. I could live on macaroni and cheese and ramen noodles for $10 a week. I'm paying $75 just for salad ingredients. Avocados are over $2.50 EACH now. That doesn't cover food for David, his milk, and cereal, and so on. $400 to $500 a month for food for two people is crazy.

I rarely go out anymore.

David has to ride the UTA bus every day to get home from school. That's $2.50 a day. He eats lunch at school and that's also $2.50 a day. So it's $25/week to let him go to "free public school".

Stocks are in the toilet. I can't even sell my stock now... it's worth less than what I paid.

And the exhorbitant amounts people charge for funerals!! Three lines in the paper for an obituary cost $300 in Florida. That is highway robbery. No wonder more people are choosing cremation! I think I am going to also. I don't want to fork out THOUSANDS of dollars to be planted in the ground! Just cremate me and plant me with my mom in Putney. Or sprinkle me over something.

The government spends hundreds of thousands of dollars in grant money to study cow burps in the midwest. (I am serious. Read the article). So much money is wasted.

Lately in the news... all you hear about are people who have been ripping off their businesses, or getting government funding for things but the money is going in their pocket. Scams, identity thefts, robbery, murder, mental illness.

You think it can't get worse, but it does.

Sure could use a little good news.....

Nobody understands it

I found out today ON FACEBOOK that my former father in law died this morning.

Needless to say, I'm shocked.

And I'm sad. That man was like a father to me for 25 years.

I love him.

And nobody GETS it. I'm sad. And people are like "Well, he's your ex's father so why are you upset?"

One person even had the nerve to joke and say "Oh, well that's one less soc security check the government has to send out."

My heck people..... when I divorced Mark I didn't shut off all feeling and just decide to hate everybody!! I am still very much a KRAMER in many ways.

And Mark and all my kids are on a cruise right now and I don't even know if they KNOW about this!!!!!

Dad K. was my son's escort through the temple last August.

Dad K. let David and Michael spend the summer with them in FL.

Dad K. took Karin and Angie and Jessica on a road trip.

My kids LOVE their grandpa. And I am hurting for them!!!!

And I am hurting for my mother in law.

And I am just really upset that nobody GETS how upset I am!!!!!

But to find it out on FB... wow. That hurt.

I still don't even know HOW he died. Or why.

I want to hug my family. But they're all gone. I'm all alone.