Facing my fears

Huh. Never expected to say this.

I'm afraid to eat.

Not afraid to eat my little WW meals.

But I'm afraid to COOK my own recipes.

I'm a very good cook. I used to teach cooking classes for 5 years. I used to cater. I used to have my own cookie business. (out of my home).

I am a really good cook. And I use the "best" ingredients such as unsalted butter, and imported vanilla, and high quality flours....

All the stuff that tastes amazing to the tongue and lasts a lifetime on the hips.

And I'm not just talking about baked goods. I'm married to a Mexican and I can make a mean taco, burrito, enchilada, tostada, and the best beans in the family.

Being on W.W. has been very "easy" so far. The most thinking I have to do is pick out a box from the freezer. The only cooking I do involves hitting "HIGH" for 3 minutes.

So my kids and their spouses are coming over for our traditional Sunday get-together for the first time since I started this program.

I can't offer them frozen entrees.

I have to cook.

I even bought a W.W. cookbook full of recipes.

So why am I scared out of my mind?

I have to start cooking again eventually. It's not good for anybody to live on frozen meals all of the time. I get that.

So why....... am I just frozen in fear?

And how......... do I ........... get past this............ without blowing it?

I even thought about fixing them "their" food and then I fix my own frozen.

But.... I need to face this food fear and get over it.

I need to start cooking again.

I feel like this is a no-brainer....... but in my brain...... the red warning alerts go off and say "Danger Will Robinson".....

Psyche..... pfffft.